So today I wanted to talk about recurring migraines. At one point I would get migraines that lasted days, a week and were horrible. I couldn’t concentrate, I was drowsy and my vision went blue and I was sensitive to lights. People used to tell me I was tired, stressed. Basically everything other than recurring migraines, and the thing is I believed them. I tried sleeping more, stopped drinking caffeine, I did anything I could think to help. But it didn’t work (although I do enjoy not drinking caffeine).
So during lockdown, they got worse. So much worse. I was having them for days and days and I couldn’t cope. I’m only 16 so doctors are reluctant to prescribe me migraine medication, so they tried asking me to make lifestyle changes, drink more water etc. I did, and I was still suffering. I called back and they prescribed me sumatriptans. And boy are they the bane of my life. I have to take them at the start of my attacks, but they make me so tired. Like every time I take them I fall asleep 15 minutes later. So if I have an attack while at school, or doing something I don’t want to take them. I can’t fall asleep in school or during the day, its what I was trying to avoid. So I just don’t take them, only if it’s at night.
I’ve just gotten used to the pain, it’s the other things that affect me the most. My mind goes fuzzy, blue vision, light sensitivity and I can’t concentrate. The migraines affected my grades and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. I don’t want to go back to the doctors because I’m only 16 and they were reluctant enough to prescribe these ones. The medication they put me on wasn’t recommended for people under 18 so I would have an issue with them trying to put me on another. I do take them if I start having one in the evening but it’s more often I don’t. So I just live with them and I hate it. Actually, while I’m writing this I have a headache, how fun. What I do is drink lots of water, exercise, relax, try and focus other things and be in a good routine. It’s not the best fix in the world but it works enough for me to function semi-normally.
The reality is…. it’s difficult. Some days I just lay in bed and sob because I’m in so much pain. Ibuprofen and paracetamol doesn’t work so I just try and function as best I can. I mean once or twice all I could do was lay in bed for a week during half term, I pushed through too hard during a term. It’s exhausting and hard, and if this sounds anything like you please see a doctor, just because I don’t want to go back doesn’t mean you don’t need to. My mum relies on me for care so I can’t afford trying out lots of new medications, being a young carer sometimes I have to put others first.