I know you may have read that title and thought ‘Be quiet Steph, stop moaning about your ample bosom’
But trust me, if you aren’t carrying them around 24/7 you won’t get it. I’m only 5 feet tall and I’m currently wearing a 32HH. Some days, when my period is due, I have to physically hoist one arm under each boob and carry them because it hurts to wear a bra. I suffer from a condition called allodynia which basically means your skin hurts at the slightest touch. This can occur anytime but more so during my period, clothes irritate me and it’s been known to leave me in tears when having to put on a bra. But because ‘the girls’ are so large, going without one in public isn’t an option. I actually weighed them last year at the doctors office believe it or not, kneeled on the floor and hoisted them up on to the table, then onto scales. They weighed over 3kg each (almost 6lbs each!) My best friend’s twin babies only weighed 10lb between them, born. I know some people would kill to have boobs and I empathise, some people also pay lots of money for the privilege. But for me 32HH is way beyond a couple of coconuts. These are more like watermelons filled with sand!
I wish there was a thing where someone who wanted a boob job could have a share of someone’s who wanted a boob reduction. Sharing is caring, after all!
I’ve listed a few of the ‘cons’ of having huge boobs, because to me it’s a struggle but also to prove to the world and it’s wife they’re not a necessity when proving your femininity. For me, they are nothing but a pain in the back!!
- Bras are ridiculously expensive and only come in shit colours. Sometimes I can’t find my size at all, unless it’s in nude and has a separater that looks like Clifton Suspension Bridge in the middle. Cleavage? Not a chance.
- They weigh a ton! Mentioned it already but the struggle is real.
- They sag. Yep, they might look all plump and perky with a decent T-shirt bra but wait until that hammock comes off.
- Tops have to be bought 3 sizes bigger than your actual size.
- They make you look bigger than you actually are. Especially if you’re short like me, you just tend to look round. My mum calls it top heavy but trying to find clothes that fit your bust and your waist proves difficult – top tip though, www.Bravissimo.co.uk are great for this very thing, if a little out of my everyday budget .
- Pregnancy makes them even bigger, and the pain!! O.M.F.G!!
- I found it really hard to carry my daughter when she was small, especially in a sling, as they can’t snuggle into your chest very well. The suffocation risk is real.
- I can’t sleep on my back or front.
- Even with an amazing sports bra, exercise is really uncomfortable. The weight alone makes movement hard.
- If you wear the slightest V-neck you get accused of having your Bristols out.
- You literally NEVER eat a meal without getting some stray gravy down them, or lose a grain of rice or 6 to your cleavage.
- Sometimes men don’t look at your face when they’re talking to you.
- Lumps and malignancy can be harder to spot as big boobs tend to be ‘lumpy’ by default.
You see huns it’s not all peachy and perky in the big boob camp.
Below are some of the questions I get asked often. Why don’t you….
- Lose weight? A: My boobs have never, in the history of any diet I’ve ever been on, shrunk in size.
- Wear a sports bra all the time? A: Well the allodynia wouldn’t cope well for starters, but also have you seen how ugly those things are? I’m already resulting to nude or black bras given that it costs over £50 for one bra, give me a break.
- Get a boob job? A: I can’t afford one. My doctor isn’t that understanding of the big boob thing being an actual problem (even though I’m completely out of proportion) I’d have to go in there every week for a year to be considered for NHS work and a reduction is a really invasive op and given that I have a disease that affects my body’s ability to recover, I could become really poorly. That being said, if someone offered to pay for it or I won the lottery I’d have it in a heart beat. 4.Just embrace them. A: been doing that for almost 20 years and the older I get, the lower, ergo the heavier they get. I’m tired of embracing, I want to be free.
- Cover them up!! A: Thanks hun, why don’t you try covering your head?
I try really hard to be ‘body positive’ and embrace my curves but my boobs just don’t fit me!
Imagine the pleasure in not having to wear a bra, or at least being able to take a trip to La Senza for some ditsy two piece, instead of a matron contraption from a plus size store. Did you know most shops only stock large cup sizes with large backs? Being that I’m only a 32 back can make it an impossible haul, there’s no joy in underwear shopping here! Ann Summers don’t even stock my size!! Lingerie shopping for me is the equivalent of food shopping on a diet. Soul destroying and bland.
I wish to the gods there was a boob bank, but sadly we don’t have the option to swap like football cards. Maybe one day in the far away future, but for now, looks like ‘putting up’ in the literal sense, is what I’ll continue.