On Christmas Day I lost my Grandmother. She had always been the rock in my life and she was my everything. When I wasn’t visiting her in hospital leading up to this loss, I found myself trying to do anything that she had been nagging me to do for weeks. The main thing was cleaning.
For me, cleaning use to be a chore and I really hated doing as I always thought that there were better things to do with my time. However, when I was trying to catch up with everything so I could in my own way let my Nan know that everything will be okay here when she dies, I found comfort in cleaning and I found that things started to feel normal when I did it. For further inspiration I was watching Mrs Hinch on Instagram and Youtube – her tips are amazing, especially the diluted fabric softener one as I also relate the smell of fabric softener with my Nan as she would always do the washing. This all helped me find a love for cleaning that I had never had before. Through all of this the smells have let me feel close to my Nan even though she has gone.
All of this has lead me to the point where when I am cleaning and keeping busy the world feels normal again and this has really helped over the last couple of days, as a loss in the family is always hard, but I felt as if I had to be strong for everyone else. So for me, at this time it is cleaning that has helped me keep my strength. It is also through this and using the hairspray that we both used to use that I feel the closest to my Nan.
I would highly recommend that anyone suffering with loss to keep busy at the start as it makes it all slightly easier, as well as Mrs Hinch’s videos and book.