Happy New year!
That’s what we say right?
I had such high hopes for this year and granted we are only 9 days in but already I am feeling deflated, disengaged and pretty demotivated.
And I can’t quite pull myself out of this slump that I have found myself in.
But that’s silly right? Just because its January doesn’t mean you shouldn’t feel this way and I can’t fake it, I can’t write a blog post full of positivity and ambition if right now that’s not how I am feeling.
Do we just put too much pressure, too much hype on making life changes in the New year?
I think we do.
If you know me and you’ve been following my blogs for a while you know I don’t believe in resolutions, I don’t believe in January being the only time of the year you can change your life.
But I don’t know, I just feel a little lost.
2019 was a good year, damn it wasn’t my best but for sure it was a massive improvement on 2018.
Lots of great things happened, I achieved things I set my mind too so much so that I felt comfortable going into 2020, looking forward to it almost.
So, what’s happened in the last couple of days?
Everything yet nothing is probably the easiest answer to that question.
Yet what’s bothering me is how disengaged I feel towards anything, when really, I should be feeling my most motivated.
Somewhere deep in my subconscious I can hear ‘This will pass, in a couple of days you will feel better, you will feel more yourself, don’t over think, don’t stress’
But you know when you just feel a bit meh?
I wouldn’t even say I feel upset or down, I just feel a little numb.
Life feels a little challenging. I want to get my passion back, I want to feel the purpose I had a couple of months ago.
I know pain is temporary, I know nothing can take away my growth, even when times feel particularly hard and like they will never feel any better, they will.
Are you struggling like me?
I’m telling myself every night before I fall asleep that it doesn’t matter if I feel like I have taken a few steps back, I have still grown so much from where I was 12 months ago.
I don’t need to go searching for myself, I’m right here, I’m just going through a moment, a moment that of course will not last forever.
So, if you’re like me and you’re hurting, you’re feeling a little lost and like you don’t quite know how to move forward, just remember…
You and I we are worth much more than what we are going through.